IWantToKnowWhatLoveIs.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

felt as though there's nothing left to live for in this world.

[hero]

the title says it all.

nothing to live for.

betrayal.

lies.

thats all been revolving around me these few days.

some says ' if you love that person so much, its better to let go.

so i am.

and taking each day at a time, as moving on.

yesterday night could be the last time i ever hear your voice.

i hope i wouldn't hear it again.

it hurts so bad that when you love someone and that happens.

betrayal.

yes.

i could have just walk away in the past.

i could have just listen to all my friends.

i could ..

but its too late , it already happen.

right now, the pain lingers in me like a poison.

i felt like crying as i type this.

i love her so much that its hard to let go.

but when 'that' happens. .

i felt cheated and betrayed.

goodbye to you.

i hope we won't meet again.

much LOVE; IFAHMY.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

this is it.

hello.

IFAHMY is no longer together. we've talked things out and we have agreed to be friends. it's whats best for the both of us. memories will linger forever. will still keep this blog running just for your entertainment. goodbye.

p.s: That emptiness in my heart.. yea. it's back again.

much LOVE; IFAHMY.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

I'm missing you so badly.

[heroine]

i miss him super badly. he's off to somewhere far away. even if it's only for a few days, it's still sad to know that he left with an uneasy feeling about our relationship. i am still very much in love with him eventhough he has let out words that hurts me so deep. i know i deserve to be treated that way. but the fact is that, it was just a misunderstanding. but he confessed some things that i didn't want to hear and it broke my heart to hear such words coming from his mouth. but it's time to face the reality. they say, if you love someone, learn to let them go. if they trully love you, they'll return. i hope we get to sit down and talk things out. literally listen to what each other has to say. i don't want to let go. especially at a time like this. when i need him here. for encouragement, for support, for love.

remember this? i still need it badly. YouKnowILoveYou. and my love for you will never ever fade away.

much LOVE; IFAHMY.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

going. going.

[hero]

my mood has been so fuck up these few days.
reason? i don't know.
maybe because of personal reasons or work.
dank,this sucks.

going to Seremban in like a couple of hours.
yep, its gonna be that good'ol long trip up north.
with my parents and sis.
gonna be a 3 days 2 nights thingy, i tink.
now i'm at Love's house.
spending every minute with her before i go.
i admit, she's the one person that i'm gona miss before i go.
the next thing is work, haha.
pleasant surprise huh.
i dunnoe what to blog about but yeah, that pretty much all for now.
gonna go back to Love cuz she's been bugging me to stop playing the com.
Lawl.

oh yah,
apology.
unintended.

much LOVE; IFAHMY.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

temper.

[hero]

let's just talk about my temper these few days.
it's been really, i mean really suckish.
i've been venting my anger towards everyone around me.
my colleuge's . my family . my friends. even Love.
but really, i don't mean to.
its either because i have a f***ing day or someone just mess with me.
and to all that is angry with me or i make them angry,
im sorry. yup, there you go.
it's hard for me to tell straight to the face but, yep.
sorry.

and Love,
i do love you so much k?
no matter what i say,
what i do,
what i see,
you're the one who takes my breath away.
you're the one who takes my heart away.
see baby?
i still love you.
:)

cheers~!

much LOVE; IFAHMY.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Happy 16 Monthsary To Us.

[hero]

Happy 1 year and 4 months to US!

i know. it's like yesterday but my friggin com like brokedown and it's like i'm com-less for 2-3 months!

stupid effying com!

back to the topic,

it's been a normal anniversary for both of us.

nothing special but it's a milestone for both of us . (sayang, you know why.. haha)

both busy working on that day.

just wanna say,

ILoveYouSayang!

finally we've reach this checkpoint.

I can't wait for the end of his month,

YOUR BIRTHDAY!!

*blow kisses*

and i'm super uber fucking piss with this someone.

i mean really am.

i'm at the point from liking, to Hating.

yep, Hating, with a capital H.

once is enough to make me realise what kind of person are you.

an ass.

much LOVE; IFAHMY.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

HereWeGo,Again.

[heroine]

since you want it. i'll just respect your decision. sometimes, when you expect for something to turn out fine, it's the opposite that happens. and it leads to the most hurtful situations you can ever get into. i thought once was enough. but, no. we have to be separated yet again to settle down. i feel the distance. i'm starting to feel emptiness. i'm starting to feel like i'm no one to you anymore. i'm feeling that you have other priorities in life that are much more important than this relationship. i suddenly feel like a burden to you. for once, it's my turn to say this.

You Have A Life Of Your Own Now.

he's happy with work, with his colleagues and everything. yes, i'm proud. i keep telling myself that this is for the benefit of both of us. but it just doesn't seem to be turning out that way. things have most definitely changed. i'm not sure for the better or for worse. i just wish i could turn back time, hit pause and stay there, forever. i just miss Fahmy, My FAHMY. but no matter how much you change, i know somewhere deep inside you, i can still find the Fahmy whom i fell madly in love with the moment i laid my eyes on you.

IStillLoveYou.

p.s: 15 more days. so not looking forward to it.

much LOVE; IFAHMY.